Today I went on my first long distance run in a long time. I was sweaty, hot and encouraged. The cool air and the beautiful river beside me felt fresh. When I was ready to give up, I took a rest and then had the energy to keep pushing. I love how a couple minutes of rest can reset your entire outlook.
Instead of whining and saying no, just take a break. That is the ONLY thing you need to do when you start working out. Just take a break. The rest will give you time to regain a balance on your emotions and the burn in your limbs. Even if your break is a day, or a few hours or a few days, the best part about starting a more healthy and fit lifestyle is that it is on your terms!
There is no right way to begin being healthy. Any walk, lap or sit up will be one more than you had done previously. The only difference between pushing yourself to your absolute limits and just adding exercises here and there is the time in which you will see external results. Those external results come from extreme self-discipline either very quickly and strong-willed or more of a slow pace that builds over the years.
So, while I was running today, I decided I didn’t HAVE to. I could stop at any time and that alone gave me back my control. No, I do not have to work out. I do not have to run this last block, this last couple of feet. But I am in control of that and I get to decide where I want to push my body. The pain is of my choosing and that 1 or 2 minutes of rest in between some very difficult internal battles, is all I needed to recognize that I am in control here. Nothing else but me.
Pain is a very interesting thing, because even when the pain is good, it still hurts on some level. That hurt is scary but it is not impossible. The best part is you get to decide when to experience that pain, when you don’t want to and also you get to decide what that pain means to you. Does it mean, you have control? Does it mean you are in charge of this body and this beauty with in? Yes.
Since I have obtained sobriety and am free from all of my party ways, I have found myself looking to fill my time. I want to work on this stronger, healthier, and more authentic version of myself. The first step on that journey was getting sober and staying that way! This took a lot more work than I ever expected.
Now that I am on the other side of sobriety and can assure myself that I have zero desire to fall back into old habits, I want to work on creating some new ones. In comes a favorite of mine, fitness.
Since I was young I have enjoyed activities based on physical agility and drive. Sports, track and field, soccer, really anything that involves some physical movement has always made me smile (as it does most people, actually).
That is why after many years of being back and forth with any athletic pursuits, I have decided to dive in to full body work outs. HIIT sessions are a great way to raise the heart rate, burn deeply while at the same time, constantly changing your sets to keep working out; fun and fast paced. Which are the two keys, (fun and fast paced) that made me fall in love with athletics at a young age.
So, with 2020 right around the corner I felt it was the perfect time to commit myself to the fit and healthy me I know I am inside! Although it is 2020 soon, the New Year itself did not spark this motivation.
Even while I was actively using, drinking, and partying.. every month or so I would go through this huge over drive and purge my self of all of my bad habits for a day, a week, or sometimes longer. Very sporadically I would decide I needed an over haul. So I would do that, change my entire life in one day. That would last for a little then I would go right back to my familiar routines and of course drinking and only worsening my health and state of mind.
One thing is certain though, even when I was at the lowest of some of my lows, my physical activity and health were always on my mind. I guess we can see what kind of damage we are doing, even if we don’t have the basic tools to help change that damage, at the time.
This is the first time the thought of getting fit and healthy isn’t overtaking my every thought or putting some huge amount of pressure on me. Instead it is bringing my excitement and a feeling of self-control which is much needed in my life.
The ability to control something. The ability to create something new. To re-create me!
On December 20, 2019 I am joining the gym! This is going to be a huge step on my recovery journey. I have joined gyms before with anxiety always jumping in the way of my goals. I always felt afraid to be on my own in a gym, overwhelmed and now that I am aware of why, and how I feel those things, they have become a lot simpler to navigate.
The gym is going to be a great place to feel my sobriety and also work on my body, mind, and spirit! Since, exercise also benefits your mood, and attitude you could say it deeply improves your mind’s function and your overall spiritual well-being.
I will be combining HIIT sessions, the gym, and biking into a set routine to bring me into 2020, and the future. Also, I will continue backpacking/hiking too!
This is the most calm, and excited I have been to take on a new project in a very long, long, long time. Words can’t even explain where I am at in my head this past year. It has been full of good and bad days, but something in me clicked. I am finally able to see where I’m able to go, not just where I came from! The future is bright friends! xo.
$30,000 in debt sounds like a huge mountain to climb when you are staring at it from a distance. The one thing you don’t want to do is avoid the mountain of debt. The faster you start paying off the debt, the faster the overwhelming feeling of grief will dissipate.
So, I myself am currently in $30,000 worth of debt. Going to school and taking out loans to do that got me where I am. I also have a pretty low paying job, but I will not let it stop me!
I always thought it would be fine until I got to a point where $30,000 seemed like a gloomy dark cloud following me around, raining and sometimes pouring down on me.
So, I decided to face the cloud head on. It is so important to look at your situation and realize the positives! When I did the math I realized I can pay off all of this debt and have savings too! It will take time, but I have a ton of that!
I am going to begin by paying $250 every month towards my debt. In 10 years, I will have paid off $30,000! That seems like a long time but I am 28 years old. I think back to 10 years ago, I was 18, and really that feels like yesterday.
When I reach 38 I want to be proud of who I am. I want to have zero debt, and I want to have a significant amount of money in my savings account.
So, I am starting now!
I encourage others to start paying debt ASAP.
By making changes in spending habits, and looking at where you want to be in the future.
I know I don’t want to be 38 and still have this debt hanging over every move I make.
38 year old me wants to be proud of herself for taking the steps to freeing herself from the weight of financial strife.
I was quick to take out loans and was very irresponsible through out my twenties, which landed me in a pretty dark place.
This new found hope I have, comes with so many new questions and exciting opprotunities.
What will it be like to be debt free?
Being debt free means something different to everyone. For me, having no debt will be a new lease on life. I can spend my money on what I want in life, material goods, vacations, things I wouldn’t normally feel good doing.
This loss of feeling good about enjoying life’s pleasures has come from knowing I am broke, but I am learning to look at it through a different lens. I will be so proud and feel like I deserve vacations just for paying my off my debt and not letting it bury me!
Where can I cut back on spending?
Cutting back in different areas like food, clothes, entertainment will be a necessity. Although, I love to buy myself new cloths, or tend to rather eat out then cook a meal, I need to realize that the longer I escape the debt in front of me the longer it will be a part of my life. Cutting back on simple pleasures is so beneficial to those of us who struggle with debt.
How can I keep myself motivated to stay on track?
Make a goal sheet: after every 3, 6, 9, 12 months etc. reward yourself with those simple pleasures you have been skipping out on. Do a full day of self-love, self-care, and give into a few pleasures or spend some money on something that is important to you.
What does a good budget plan look like?
There are lots of ways of making a budget plan. You can break them down from year to month, every week even by the day. Setting aside money for regular bills, food, and gas/transportation.
Always leave yourself with some extra money for unexpected events or if you want to get something special throughout the month. Also, put money in to savings. Start small, and once you begin to get a hold of your over-spending, you can start saving more and more.
Having savings is an amazing security blanket for those of us who are already in debt, because it is a reminder that you are not only working to get out of debt, you are actually working towards your bigger goals and dreams at the same time.
I will be putting $200 in savings a month. This will add up pretty quickly and eventually I will have those dreams I always think of, and they will be real! No debt looming over me either!!
So, I am going to be cutting back significantly. Saving a lot, and paying off debts all while working towards my dreams.
Clean home surfaces, floors, and just about anything else you can think of using simple organic ingredients. Make your home toxin free and non-harming for you and your family.
- 16 oz spray bottle
- 3/4 cup white vinegar
- 2 tablespoons baking soda
- 10 drops of essential oils for smell (lemongrass, tea tree, etc.)
- Mix together vinegar and essential oils
- Add in 3/4cup water then pour in baking soda
- Fill rest of bottle with water
- Clean your house, toxin free!
Create an at home mask, quickly and organically. Fight redness, inflammation with the use of lavender and chamomile. Help sagging, wrinkled and/or lifeless skin with hydrating coconut oil and Vitamin E. A simple way to calm and hydrate skin with pure organic ingredients.
- 3/4 cup Coconut Oil
- Teaspoon Dried Lavender
- Teaspoon Dried Chamomile
- 3 drops Vitamin E Oil
- Crush the dried chamomile and lavender in a bowl, then mix in coconut oil and Vitamin E oil.
- Spread onto face
- Leave on for 10min
- Wipe off with semi-moist cloth
- Repeat nightly, as desired!